6 months ago I was homeless and alone, having fled from a toxic, abusive relationship. I had my own place after about 10 days. It's small, but adequate. I've been working very hard on healing my
mind, my spirit, and my emotions. I'm in
a much better place now, though I still have much work to do. I feel happier. I feel stronger. I have come so far. Right about the time you start to see
progress, old habits try to sneak back in.
For the past month or so, I have been battling my inner demons, for lack
of a better way to describe it. I've
allowed my mind to go places it has no business going. I've come very, very close to considering
going back to him. Every time I do
though, I hear that small voice inside of me saying "NO!
You have come so far. You will
not undo everything you have accomplished! You are far too valuable to settle
for that!" I believe it is the
voice of the Holy Spirit, and I listen!
Every single time I have considered it, He always, always gives me a
reality check. Thank you Lord, for Your
Holy Spirit who speaks to me in the still of the night. For being my Voice of Reason. For helping me to be strong enough to resist. I will keep moving forward, putting one foot
in front of the other. I will never go
backward, because I don't ever want to be in that place again. This is my
journey, and I will correctly choose who I take with me.
“The
journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. ”
