I'm sitting outside today, thinking about things that happen in our lives that we have no control over. Things that other people do that affect us in a dramatic way, and how frustrating it is to not be able to do anything to stop or prevent it. Several things have happened lately that are weighing heavily on my mind and my heart.
It's difficult to not question why, why me. Why am I chosen to carry such burdens, when everyone else around me seems so carefree? I know that we don't see into the lives of others as we do our own. I know that there are many people around me that are carrying more heartbreaking burdens than I am. But my pain is what is real to me. My fears are real to me. My daily struggle is to not allow my circumstances to get me down - to send me into a downward spiral of depression and self-pity. I refuse to let that happen.
I know that my God is a loving God, and I know that He will see me through. There will be lessons learned, wisdom gained, and new paths to take. It's just a slow, slow process. But I will learn. I will grow. I will rise above it.
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